Christina

2009-06-15T14:47:00.002+08:00

WONT BE UPDATING HERE ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEE!

2009-06-15T11:42:00.000+08:00

I can almost see it,
That dream I'm dreamin'
But theres a voice inside my head sayin'
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high
Theres always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
Its the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But, No, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember Most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin'

And, I, I got to be Strong
Just Keep pushing, on
'Cause theres always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
Its The Climb

Yeah

Theres always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
Its the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep the faith baby
Its all about
Its all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep the faith woah

Hang on!

2009-06-14T01:00:00.004+08:00

Yep, hang on. Don't go just yet. I've been enjoying my holidays although school is starting in just a day's time. I've been neglecting this space so much. Oh well.

I was out today for team lunch with Lanest (my basketball team in sec school) to celebrate Jamye's birthday and most of us were late. We had a good catching up session though.

Oh! After lunch, Shujun, Sheena and me decided to go over to Clarke Quay to search for our Sticky sweets. It was fun mixing those sweets together and those sweets make good gifts.

Met Fir, Khalis and his friends and we hang out at Din's Starbucks outlet. I ate a lot today and I think I am feeling guilty. hah.

Hey Shila! You found a job! I am happy for you and work hard. Have fun folding those clothes! :-P

I'll come back soon. Good day!

Break Free

2009-06-04T15:28:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, I know I've been neglecting this blog for a long time. Anyway! I've been having fun for the past few days or should I say when I start having my holidays? Yea, I am a very happy girl.

Mm, I guess its better off this way, I am clear of what I want and I don't wanna be restricting myself anymore. Oh well, let's leave this out. I know I have Shila and Nad who doesn't think wrongly of me.

I am still here, I promise.

2009-05-29T14:15:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Nad Mon Cheri.

Stay happy always.

2009-05-28T10:45:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Angie! :-)

I got wasted.

2009-05-26T11:01:00.003+08:00

On Saturday night, Shijie called me after work to ask if I want to join them for a drink which I did.

I asked his friend why is he not drinking. So he said, "Drink, don't drive." *Pointing to his bicycle* lol.

I can't wait for my holidays to come. Sian.

Minds cafe

2009-05-25T23:23:00.005+08:00

I've been really lazy to update this blog of mine. Anyway! My classmates and I went to Minds Cafe a few days back for our class outing. Awesome.

Then I went to meet Farhan and guys.
I am losing touch when it comes to writing in a blog. How?

This is Rachel trying to pour pepper down Saleha's throat because she lost in a game.

This is part of my class.

Rinna's turn.

Bernad's forfeit. The chicken dance.

HEHEHEH, I like this one. We should have used the cucumber instead. Meow.

Rinna, Andre, Jolin, Me.

Fishing

2009-05-17T21:44:00.003+08:00

Buying bait for fishing @ Changi.

Yo people

2009-05-17T20:42:00.005+08:00

Firstly, my friends suck that's why I am pointing two middle fingers. I will tell you why I say that later.

There! Just look at this picture. Not my face okay. Now look again.. That's right, Shila's closing her eyes again. Well almost but still. 70% of my photos, Shila will be closing her eyes.

And just look at them. HAHAH, cacat. :-P I am still the cool one. hehehheheheheheh.

And this girl, trying to seduce this old man behind her. Wait, Shila is no angel either. It was her idea!

See, I am still the best.

2009-05-15T20:53:00.003+08:00

Blogger's giving me problems. :( I want to upload the pictures that we took on the day when we went to town.

Stay tune.

Blessing from a distance

2009-05-14T13:33:00.007+08:00

I have been brain drained by school and there's no more brain juice left. After school I have to work and I hardly have time for my friends. Finally, I have time after school today. :-) Sadly, I haven't clear my CE points, 24 more to go.

Fortunately, I have friends who love hanging out late at night and doing things I like. I am going fishing on Saturday! After work. It will be a good way to distress. Way to go jellybeans. Another one another one. We will be having a chalet on 7th to 9th June. I am very excited. Really.

My class is having a class outing next friday, to Minds Cafe. I bet it'll be fun. June holidays, maybe class chalet at Downtown or Sentosa. August or September, we are planning to go Thailand. To shopppppp. Power packed. Hehehe, I like I like. 我喜欢.

Sian, I need to do something to my hair, its very dry, frizzy and jialat. I will find a way on Saturday. Oh ya, I haven't start on my scrapbook, really busy and tired everyday but I want to squeeze time for it soon. Need to design. Double excitement. Hmm, I've got alot things that I want to do. Things like keeping fit and my Understanding Test is next Tuesday! I got no time eh eh eh. I know nuts about hospitality and tourism management. 我很累. Very tired. Very very tired until I don't know how to explain how tired I am. Fuck.

Sibei sian. Ciao.

Happy Birthday Sis.

2009-05-12T11:50:00.006+08:00

Today is my sister's birthday and my aunt will be coming to Singapore later in the evening. Its so cold in class now. I have to complete my CE points.

Playden

2009-05-11T11:20:00.004+08:00

"Focus". I've just edited Din's photo and I think he looks good in this.
I went for supper last midnight with the usuals. We head to parkway for pool and we almost got into an accident lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Thank god for me. Meow.

Are you hungry? Because I am.

Its Vesak day today, JC, sec school, primary school students do not have to go to school. While I am here typing away, thinking of food and looking forward to hang out with Shila and Nad. It has been a long time. Where will we be going????????????????????

Oh ya, we are planning a chalet during June holidays! Hopefully we can confirm the number of people sooooon before the chalets are fully booked. Jia youuu.

Happy Mothers' Day

2009-05-10T23:23:00.005+08:00

"Blood is thicker than water. I can find no one to replace you."
You may not be perfect in others' eyes, but always perfect in mine.

I am glad that you're always rooting me in whatever I do.

The most blissful thing is that I am able to walk under your footsteps, you assure me with good guidance.

I live to watch you smile, to watch you live healthily.

To watch you eat your favourite durian cake from Emicakes.
Always young and cool mom. I love you.

I will be right back

2009-05-10T12:07:00.000+08:00

I lost my ezlink card.

2009-05-07T14:27:00.002+08:00

I was at a talk in the lecture theatre and I misplaced my ez link card. :(
Now I can't use bus concession. Sian.

Annoyingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg..

Culinary module

2009-05-05T09:56:00.002+08:00

Culinary module, culinary module. Sian, I am going to end class late again. Boring or not you tell meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. telll me tell me.

I forgot to bring my charger. Double S to the I to the A to the N. MEOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

I am very hungry also, dying already. Surviving on only quaker chocolatey drizzle. Bring me fooooooooooooooooood.

2009-05-04T10:01:00.002+08:00

I am back from a camp at Pulau Ubin. Its team bonding for the Vietnam trip that I MAY be going in June.

The highlight during the stay is definitely the ants. Our tents were infested with ants, trails of bloody ants. I swear. lol. I slept with Shila and Nad, I got bites all over my legs, arms and face. Shila called me the "obsessed ant killer". I am quite proud of that title cos I protected my two cute friends from getting bitten. hehehehhe.

I am so lazy to write anything down. Hey Shila, you're 20 years and 1 day olddddddd.
Enjoy life.

Stronger

2009-04-26T22:15:00.004+08:00

I assure you that I am part of the picture. I am still me, don't ever give up on me. Especially the both of you. I am looking forward to 1st June.

"They can say,
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me,
And they can try
Hard to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's,
There's a light in me,
That shines brightly,
They can try,
But they can't take that away from me
From me"

;-)

The hearts

2009-04-25T17:00:00.003+08:00

I've been wanting to do voluntary work for a long time already and now I got a chance to do it.

Yep, with some of the school people. To VIETNAM!!!
Shila, Nad and me always wanted to travel together, take planes and have fun.

Now we're going to do it, just that we are going there for a school trip.
Its always them if you realised, everything we do together. AHHA.

At least the voluntary work makes my life more meaningful, really. heheh. (L)

Ciaooooooooo, coffeee bean nowwwww.

I need chocolates

2009-04-23T14:35:00.006+08:00

I should have known.
For it is laid infront of me to see.

"Its not the fall that hurts, its when you hit the ground."

I hit the ground and got hospitalised. lol.
Yea, that bad.

2009-04-22T09:55:00.000+08:00

I don't swallow that sort.

2009-04-20T20:33:00.003+08:00

Even the stupid yakult bottle is going against me. I tried throwing into the bin like 10 times, but it just won't go in.

Fuck you.

I hate school, who doesn't?

2009-04-20T17:15:00.005+08:00

I am thankful I have a good friend to replace me today because guess what?
I haven't end my class and I think this is too much.

Its not as if you can change the world by extending class because I am fucking hungry now, fucking pissed.

10am - 6pm? :( Save me, save me.

P.s. Liyana, I am not going to tell you where I work at! hahahahaha. :-P

I got alot of shit in my rectum

2009-04-18T22:31:00.005+08:00

I went to Simpang Bedok today with Shujun, we ate a lot as usual.
Teh tarik, cheese and egg prata, prata bomb + cheese, mushroom soup, chicken wings.
I vomited when I reached home. Too full already. lol.

Thanks Shujun for the Uniqlo top. heeeeeeeee, I like it very much. Meow.

Work tomorrrrowwww. Ciao.

Feeling so detached. So unemotional. sigh.

wo hen lei

2009-04-16T23:43:00.003+08:00

I like Shihui's most recent post about letting go.

Just came back from work not long ago, I was in the store the whole day, replenishing and arranging of stocks.

I got my formal tops already.
I made Shila try dark cherry mocha frap and she wanted to kill me.
I made myself try green tea cream frap and its not to my liking......................... :(

I am going to the gym before I go to work tml. I hope Shujun can manage to wake up at 10am.

I need to go now. Ciaoooooooooooooooooooooo.

Job

2009-04-15T16:30:00.004+08:00

Okay, I found a job at Tampines 1 and I am not going to complain already although the amount of clothes I have to fold is alot alot alot.

"Its not the fall that hurts, its when you hit the ground."

Rock n' roll

2009-04-13T18:52:00.004+08:00

Okay, I am excited for the covers that I am going to do tomorrow. With Zie and Zul.
I hope its nice so I can upload for you guys. ;-)

Can't wait, I can't wait, can't wait.

Ciaooooooo.

Little Johnny and his balloons

2009-04-10T21:24:00.002+08:00

Little Johnny walks into his mothers room and catches her topless.

Mommy, Mommy, what are those? He says pointing to her breasts.

Well, son, These are balloons, and when you die, they inflate and float you up to heaven.

Incredibly, he appears to believe this explanation and goes off quite satisfied. Two days later while his mother is making tea, he rushes into the kitchen. Mommy, Mommy, Aunt Eliza is dying!

What do you mean? Says his mother.

Well, she's out in the garden shed, lying on the floor with both of her balloons out. Daddy is trying to blow them up for her and she keeps yelling, God, I'm coming! God, I'm coming!

2009-04-09T14:22:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Shihui! :-)

Another lesson learnt

2009-04-08T23:28:00.004+08:00

"Gain something dear, gain something.Tiring to see in the dark isn't it? Now that its brighter, its time to see it in a different light. Let these enlighten you."

Almost here

2009-04-08T23:10:00.006+08:00

"In order to be loved, you must be worth loving."
Self reminder and a reminder for all.

An island getaway

2009-04-08T21:40:00.003+08:00

I know I haven't been updating recently because I am very lazy and I am very lazy.
Anyway! We went to Pulau Ubin today.

This is our group photo.
6 single bicycles and a double bicycle. Now, off we go.

Zie and Nad said they saw a wild boar. I am not interested in wild boars. I wanna see snakes though. heh.

Let me cut short our journey.

We cycled, stop, cycled, stop for a drink, cycled, Nad fell, Zie got cramps, I pushed my bicycle uphill instead of cycling up, the weather very hot, I perspired, my friends perspired, I like my new friend.

I know I know, this is abit lame, but very cute what.

Bye Pulau Ubin. Oh ya, the uncle very rude. EE, I don't like.

We went to Changi Village for dinner. Nasi lemak and satays. heheheh, one of the cravings out from my list.

Home.

Mission failed

2009-04-05T23:57:00.001+08:00

Wow wow wow

We didn't hit the gym.

Broken strings

2009-04-05T00:42:00.004+08:00

Maybe you should learn how to put yourself in a lower position because I think you're too high up?
Its affecting me in a way that its annoying me so much that I could even explode.
Why must it be that factor everytime you're thinking about something?
Now tell me, if its gonna be meaningful and happy just by giving a little, then why not?
You're always on your side, always thinking about how this factor could fulfil your lame needs.
And, not thinking of how much it could do to give just a little.
Damn.

Damn you.

Make the ride worthwhile

2009-04-03T14:03:00.004+08:00

"Feel me in your blood."

2009-04-02T00:03:00.001+08:00

Pea ;-)

Job hunting

2009-04-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

Sai pay, but I guess I got no bloody choice unless Espirit or Fish & co wants me.

Lady luck, fuck me.

Start with yourself

2009-03-31T23:04:00.012+08:00

"Honesty is the best policy."

It may sound a little cheesy at first but after giving it a thought, will you agree with me? Unless you have nothing to risk which I believe otherwise.

We humans, have a flexible, unlimited capacity for deception. Most of the time we choose to keep mum because we are looking towards what is best for us. That desire and that need to deceive because there's a need of good impression and trying to avoid problems after admitting.

However, you can say its your life to keep others in the dark because you are in total control. Now, maybe dishonesty is the second best policy. Dishonesty is when you need a turn around to cover up something you are wanting to change. Then go ahead as long as you know you WILL become better.

If not, honesty still is the best policy. It feels good to admit than weighing all the guilt in you.

To be honest, you need to leave all your pride behind you. Admit, not defend.

Now,
"Would you want to know or rather not know the bad news?"

You want to know because you don't want to draw any line in between parties and yourself, you are curious, you want a relationship to be transparent, you don't like the idea of being cheated on/kept in the dark.

You think its best you not know because when you don't know, there's nothing to worry about, when there's nothing to worry about, nothing will change your mood, and when nothing changes your mood, you'll be you.

So which one is the better way?

Since I said honesty is the best policy, I guess it is good if you know something you don't wanna know because at least, you are not walking in a maze. Be honest with yourself first, you know you wanna know.

When a problem strikes, you need to strike it out immediately instead of leaving it there. Nothing beats cancelling out something bad from your list. ;-)

Don't jeopardize your relationship by shutting yourself out just because you are afraid of knowing. Solve.

Loves,

Christina

Finally

2009-03-31T23:01:00.001+08:00

I am sick of the old link. Soo there! A new one and guys, I got a new layout. hehehe. Wth, not as if you guys won't notice.

meowwww.

Learning

2009-03-31T04:43:00.004+08:00

Your face stands out loud in the crowd. I see you seeing me. Stay close and watch. Let's see what's gonna happen.

Colors

2009-03-23T00:47:00.005+08:00

Helllllllllo guys.

Adidas sales @ Expo is very disappointing.
&& I have decided to send my phone to the service center for repairs tml.

Ciaoooooooooooooooooooo.

Witches of witches

2009-03-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

Afraid of losing

2009-03-20T00:15:00.004+08:00

When to stop giving so that you won't lose more than what you gave?

Picnic @ Botanic Gardens

2009-03-19T16:27:00.003+08:00

Switch on, Switch off

2009-03-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

People come and go. They might be close to you once, or even your best friend. Making you wonder what have you exactly done wrong or whether you've put in enough to keep it stable.

We tend to ask others, "Am I really a good friend and if yes, why do these people have to leave?" Yep, I've seen many people leaving me. Too many and its pretty tiring. Its like starting to learn a whole new game.

Friends are hard to come by, I appreciate every one of them and I mean it. I am not here just to preach but you know, feelings stay as feelings. You've heard of, "you give is what you always get". You may get tired of being too giving sometimes because you always expect something and get nothing in return.

I wouldn't want someone to do something I wouldn't want them to do.
I wouldn't want someone to stop being friends with me.
I wouldn't want to do something to hurt my friend.
I wouldn't want to be here typing all this shit when I can do something else instead.
I wouldn't want to lose a friend.
I wouldn't want to lose a friend.

How far can you expose yourself to your best friend?
Does it make sense if I have the intentions to hurt my best friend and yet tell him/her everything about myself?

Sorry if I don't make sense.

But you know what, I tried my best as a friend and I am your friend if you want me to be.

I am just upset how people can leave without hearing a single explanation.
Its really unfair.

What if you were me?
How would you feel?

Friendship is like a "put yourself into my shoes" kinda thing. I will never stop trying unless you want me to.

I've picked up many constructive knowledge from situations and situations. Its not the end, never the end. I've got to know new people, and these people are awesome people and they get better. I've learnt to be appreciative. It doesn't mean I've forgotten about that friendship we used to have, its there, at least for me.

"People come and go."
Some people disappoint you time and time again. It just shows how much they don't cherish you.
Leave, you deserve better friends. Its not as if they revolve around you.

As for me, we didn't even manage to clear it off.

Carry on

2009-03-16T00:36:00.001+08:00

It doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you don't stop.

Happiness is just a tear drop away

2009-03-15T20:26:00.004+08:00

I am quite an emotionally attached person and I like it all by myself.

Sometimes while we are seeking for something to fill up the emptiness, we tend to make mistakes, be it a mistake affecting ourselves or a mistake affecting others. However, we promise to make it a lesson learnt but many times, we start writing onto the same line over and over again. Accumulating blunders and blunders.

We might be clear of what is wrong, but sometimes its all about going with the flow. Its like a hidden trap. Going with the flow may sound good but its better if we stop it.

I know.

I know its difficult sometimes, especially when you are missing out something and this opportunity is right at your door, thus asking yourself....

WHY NOT?!!!

Yes, but time and time again, we regret for what we've done. Its like an irrevisble act.

Now look, its not completely over. I guess its all about refraining and trusting yourself with what you really need and making sure you won't regret. Be stern with your decisions, and make sure your decisions are good decisions. "Do what is right, don't do what it feels right." Right?

We don't need people who are redundant, we don't have to hold on to something so hurtful and especially when you know they cannot be trusted.

We don't need 10, we need 1. Quality counts. Don't hope. Don't hope that someone will change for the better if you know that they will still be the same. Don't expect anything.

Move on, not with a heavy heart.

2009-03-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

Heavy eyelidssssssssss, need sleeepepepepep. ciao.

Bad day

2009-03-14T22:22:00.003+08:00

I sacrificed my sleep for work in case I oversleep. I thought work would turn out fine since I was told that I am going to work till only 3pm at SBE.

I was wrong, so darn wrong.

That fat bao asked me if I could extend till 6pm and I said I couldn't. He asked why, I told him I made plans. He didn't bloody listen, why bother to ask? Fuck you hard. I never work at Tram 1 before and I heard it will be crowded and I am bad at controlling crowds and I hate working at Tram stations and I don't know a single fuck of what I am suppose to do there. I am not even angry at Fid, I was just feeling groggy but that Fat bao couldn't stop his assumptions. Fuck fat.

Fat bao kept asking me whether I am close to Shila because I guess he probably think that we are always skipping work together which is true sometimes but not all the time. Ah.

At the start of the day, I kept taking in all those nags and shit from this and that.

And that fucked up racist shit tram supervisor, I wanted to spit at his face.

Then it started to rain heavily. I was concentrating on the guests, bringing them into the tram and do my fucking best to not let them get caught in the rain. I totally forgot about the bloody rostrum where I placed my cash box and my tickets on. I see the raindrops on my tickets, forming patterns, very pretty(sacarsm). Very clever. I was soaking wet by then. Top to toe. I am serious. Very serious. I tried to shift the rostrum but its so heavy I wanted to die. I thought I just keep the cashbox safe and dry will do. Little did I realise that I never lock that fucking cash box. As I lift the shit, all the notes and coins drop. Best part was, I didn't want to do anything. I kept looking at the ground, full of hundreds of dollars. All in a pool of rainwater. I didn't want to do much. I was pissed, upset, irritated. Then, I slowly pick all the money up and I know I am going to suffer a huge shortage. Bitch.

I broke my sandals on the way back to tally the money. My hair was soaking wet, like one fucking mad woman, my skin crumpled, my toes too. I was shivering at ticketing booth while counting the money. Point is, I had a really bad day. I really had a bad day.

Work, insomia

2009-03-14T02:49:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep, can't sleep, don't wanna try to sleep because I might oversleep.
I know this may sound complicated, but I am fighting those heavy eyelids but I can't sleep. Ahh, sigh.

I can't find my sandals for work. I am so dead. I am very sian, really very sian.

Pizza, Nokia Music Station @ Esplanade

2009-03-13T22:58:00.006+08:00

Nokia Music Station @ Esplanade.

Nad's Spag

;-)

We caught "Coming soon" in the Theatres and Shila kept squeezing my arm. I don't wanna be a spoiler here but I think the twist in the story is unexpected. ;-)

I've got work tml, and I am feeling very sian again.

2009-03-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

Call myself water.

I am in a cup and its filled to the brim. Its going to overflow. You know?

Body Shop Sales

2009-03-12T23:20:00.004+08:00

I slept at 4am this morning, mom woke me up from sleep at 12pm because she wants me to accompany her to the market. She wants to buy groceries, I had to help her carry those heavy shit if not I bet she will fail to make her way home. lol.

She complained that my hair is too messy so she asked me to trim, which I did. It doesn't make any difference but as long as it makes her happy.

Open my mailbox, saw Sharon's mail, Body Shop sales at Suntec, very good. Changed, met Nad, squeezed with the crowd, good steals, eat ayam penyet at Marina food loft, eat honey, slack, home.

Ciao.

Meow

2009-03-11T19:12:00.006+08:00

I miss my long hair. I packed my table. I cleared my wardrobe. I swept my floor. I am very sian.

2009-03-11T03:22:00.002+08:00

CHRISTOPHER'S A DISGUSTING BITCH. He digs his ass for shit and eat them.

And, give me ten reasons why I should delete this post. lol.

2009-03-11T02:16:00.003+08:00

See, when I try so hard to bring across that painful message hoping that someone would feel for me, it always end with such disappointment.

2009-03-10T10:54:00.001+08:00

I need need to balance everything.

Rounds

2009-03-09T21:40:00.002+08:00

I am desperately gasping for air. Have you ever tried explaining something but found out you've been going in circles and never came to the point?

Honestly, I am glad it happened in my dream and been saying what I always wanted to. Its a form of release, like how you vent your anger through your fist.

I think its all good in the end.

Philosopher who loses his mind

2009-03-09T17:26:00.004+08:00

I just got back from a job hunt. I guess its more like a shopping trip instead. lol, Shila's going to kill me. Ah, I hope the zoo doesn't fire me.

Toy'r us got no vacancies, borders too. Kinooo, please call us. Meow.

I am going to read my book nowwwwwwwwwwwwww. ciao.

Snuggle up

2009-03-07T16:27:00.004+08:00

Its getting bored in here. I am playing word challenge on facebook, trying to record some shit and hoping it will sound good. Its quite stuffy in here, I need to open my windows. Be right back.

Ok back, Shila says my blog is turning rusty. So I am here to jot down things I've done in the past few days.

I went to Henderson waves at midnight. Its so beautiful, so beautiful. I felt the pressure when we were high up. Actually, when we had to go in rounds and rounds, I felt a little nausea. lol. Jellybeans composed a new song other than "The Sun". We haven't come up with a full lyrics yet and still don't know what's the song name. Temporary name for that song is a little retarded. lol. I don't know why is it called the "Neh neh pocky" song, don't ask me. It was Denan's idea. hahah.

Hakim seems to be sleep talking now, saying goodnight to me online. He's working at Tram 3 tomorrow and I think its funny to see how that guy panick when the crowd comes. lol. I sounded evil.

Back to the topic, I've been eating a lot of Indian food recently, especially pratas. I like Komala's Thosai right Shila? HAHA. Casuarina Curry's mutton, Simpang's prata. All those late night suppers. Oliver, remember the stupid puddle? Good friends share everything! lol.

I think I am gonna miss all these late nights outing. School is reopening soon.

Mom, thanks

2009-03-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

Although dad forgot my birthday, I can leave it to you to remember.
Although dad walked out of the house when we are supposed to have a mini celebration for my birthday, I got you to celebrate with.

Thanks mom. You're the coolest mom, coolest friend. Thank you for putting so much trust in me. You may be a nuisance at times, but still I have to say, no one can love me as much as you do.

Thanks Wilson and Jasmine. I may not be a good sister but you know what, I love you guys.

A thank you note.

2009-03-01T22:22:00.005+08:00

Thank you for those who text/tag/call me to wish me a happy birthday!
Fauzul, Hamdam, Sharon, Zhixin, Farhan, Ivan, Kaming, Cath, Winston, Raj, Rasyid, Simin, Shijie, Farz, Adilla, Qibin, Weixiang, Sheena, Shujun, Kumar, Liyana, Amron, Umairah, Shihui, Charmaine, Jasmine, Leon, Priscilla, Zie, Nut, Rifaie, Huibin, Deon, Syed Hafiz, Johnboy, Wuman, Vjay and Fadyl!

Thank you for being there on my birthday!
Shila, Nad, Dian, Syed, Zie, Fadly, Oliver, Denan, Awi, Casper
Sharon, Peishan, Zixin, Cindy, Jeslyn
Ethan, Raj, Onisa, Yiwen
Weixiang

Thank you for the big card and birthday cake.
Thank you for the cake mixer and cake.
Thank you for the chocolates.
Thank you for the most random present ever and that top secret.
Thank you for the mug.
Thank you for the necklace, I like it alot.
Thank you for the Loacker and card.
Thank you for the movie gift card.
Thank you mom for the Martell, best to tell me that I am already 18.

I appreciate it alot!
I hope I never miss out any of you. (L)

18 years of living..

2009-02-28T23:28:00.009+08:00

I have so many reasons to live. Each and every one of you explains why I am smiling today. Its clear to me how very important you guys are to me. We might be leading different lives, we might be very busy with others, but I guess we hold each other in our hearts. ;)

I had the most unexpected surprise ever. Oh wait, surprises are meant to be unexpected. I am going to type a composition! Bear with me.

On Friday night.. I was with Shila, Casper and Xue Peng(Cas's friend) Ah, I shouldn't start with Friday. Too long winded.

Ethan and friends said they opened a bottle for me and ask me to join them for a drink under my void deck, which I did. We started drinking from 11pm. I was texting Oliver throughout and he kept asking me what am I doing for 3 times which I suspected a little but didn't care much because he got bad memory sometimes. Casper asked me whether I am home safely and its a normal thing he would ask. At 11.55pm, Dian called to wish me an early birthday. At 12am, I was sitting with my friends and they asked me not to turn around. I am stubborn like that, so I turned and saw allllllllllll of them with a birthday cake. Oliver said my reaction is priceless.

Shila, Nad, Dian, Zie, Syed, Fadly, Oliver, Casper, Denan and Awi! I hit them the moment I see them because I was really touched. This is how I express myself I guess. Haa. I wanted to cry, really.

You guys did it man! (L) Thank you Oliver, for driving them here. ;)

They came over to my house. I opened the bottle my mom gave me for my birthday present earlier. I can't remember what happened but I know I vomited. I know Awi and Zie played the guitar. I can remember Denan and Awi went home early because they have to wake up early the next day. While sending Syed home, Oliver had to stop the car because I need to puke. Twice. Zie laughed and said I puke alot. I laughed a little too. Bedok macs for breakfast, then home.

The rest slept the moment we came back to my house.

My primary school friends came in the afternoon! Thanks guys, for the cake mixer. We've known each other for so long. I am glad that we've walked this far and our friendship is still counting. I can never stop thanking you guys. ;) You guys put up a good celebration for me. I appreciate it.

We went over to Vivo in the late afternoon. Initial plan was to go luging at Sentosa but sadly.. it was raining. Caught a movie, "Role Models". I slept. Hahaha. Thank god I didn't sprain my neck.

Weixiang came over to my doorstep to pass me something at 11.30pm. Thank you fat. Before 12 huh! NICEEEE.

Best birthday ever. Don't you think so?

P.S. "Naddddddd, your bf is acting cute!!!!!!!" He took the spotlight away from me! What a bitch! :P"

I love.

Bird park

2009-02-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

Loft lory. I had fun laughing at how the birds scratch Denise's face and how those birds peck on Kun Yao's neck. I want to go there again.

We will never get enough of that Taboo game.

Casper's early birthday celebration

2009-02-19T22:15:00.003+08:00

We had a mini celebration since Casper's birthday is nearing. Most of them are from the zoo. I remember eating a lot and playing taboo.

Games such as taboo cause me to have adrenaline rush every time, they say I look stress up. Haaa.

Happy early birthday to Casper. Till then. (:

Beneath light

2009-02-19T19:17:00.002+08:00

I was playing pool on yahoo with Shila and I got the black ball in so many times. She refuses to let me go to the toilet, I can hardly aimmmmmmmmm.

I am currently rotting at home like that right now. I need to learn how to use facebook. I am quite a lazy person you know.....

Ciao

Cereals at 2.43pm

2009-02-19T02:43:00.001+08:00

Nutcrunch cereals with milk at 2.43pm. I can barely taste with block nose. Ahhhh

"Let truth bite me."

2009-02-19T01:35:00.005+08:00

Maybe we are both of different individuals, looking at different perspectives. We are at different levels. I never thought of dominance, I just want it simple. That's tht.

Stay home

2009-02-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

I need to get more more frames on Thursday. I know I've been wanting to do it but I am quite busy lately. Reminding myself here.

Come to an end

2009-02-16T17:42:00.003+08:00

Most of our pictures are taken at Starbucks and I ran out of names to describe my folders.

Location of Starbucks would be better? I guess I got a collection of it already.

I just came back from a make-up and grooming session in school. The red lipstick looks scary on me. I pretty much think its enjoyable to learn so many things, especially during hands-on. Some of them said I looked stress doing make-up, I laughed because I think I am always looking like that when I am concentrating on something. Fascinating.

I need a shower now, gotta go out sooon. Till then.

(:

2009-02-16T01:03:00.001+08:00

(L) update soon.

4.05am

2009-02-13T14:31:00.006+08:00

In that cold room, people in white robes rushing in and out of rooms.
Stern faces behind doors, words remain as words.
Advices stay as advices, its me at the end of the day.

2009-02-13T00:40:00.007+08:00

2009-02-12T04:05:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep.

A place to grow

2009-02-12T01:35:00.006+08:00

Been busy with this and that.

Happy Birthday

2009-02-09T00:21:00.005+08:00

Hi,

Happy birthday. I've got no clever lines in my head but just here to wish you a sincere one. Things are never easy sometimes, but as you grow older, you will find a way. Perhaps, you've learnt how to put things into you and refuse anyone to be involved so that it remains safe in you. I just hope everything goes well for you, and I mean it. I wouldn't apologise for what I never did. I am sorry for how weak this is. That's that. I never had a chance to explain and to think about it, I've got nothing to explain. Its clear in me.

May happiness grow within you as you get older. Those words I said to you, I hope they remain in your head. Do not lose yourself. Enjoy yourself on this very day.

It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had.

Stay happy, stay you.

2009-02-08T19:20:00.002+08:00

BUSYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

thanks for that stranger moves

Dry and out

2009-02-07T00:11:00.003+08:00

Hakim decided to hang out with us. Actionssss count. :) Finally! I only remember how he tried to advertise Kiehl's product to me whenever we walk pass that shop. Its going to work for the whole world if it works on you! HAH.

MORE MORE MORE.

2009-02-06T01:00:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Halfway done

2009-02-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

This is my first time working on a quiet weekday. I felt my legs breaking after standing for the whole day with no souls to distract me. Shila got transfered over to somewhere else. Hakim, Shila and I supposed to catch a movie but slots were all full.

While going home, Hakim asked me, "Where can we find god?". I got every answer of mine wrong. He said "dhobyghaut". I pinched his nipples and we went home.

Night people.

More pictures!

2009-02-04T01:55:00.007+08:00

Hey peopleeeeee! I am watching Greatest American Dog right now. The competition is getting intense. I don't know what's so fanscinating, rahhhhhh. "Who's going to live in the kennel next?", "Who's going to french their dog?" and "Eliminate that guy right now!".

FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU, sorry I was just feeling crappy for that one minute.
Ok back. Now I am watching Ghost hunters. I like it when they start shouting because it keeps me awake for a while. "You didn't have the chance to make things right and your daughter died. Tell me maybe I could turn it around and I can help you."

East Coast Park, Parkway Parade, Suntec City, Esplanade, Clark Quay
More, more and more!

Tsk tsk.

Sha says he's doing the cupid. HAHAHAHHA. ok stop.

I got work tomorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrow! Double tsk. AHHHHHHH.
Hakim, better turn up tml!
CIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Thanks Nadera

2009-02-04T01:32:00.005+08:00

We didn't manage to find a space for our "api-api".

Don't question me why I got that facial expression, I did it on purpose. hahahaha.

Sha looks lame, I know.

CIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

State of mind

2009-02-03T14:49:00.002+08:00

I've been walking in circles, trying to explain myself through. It is this fragile. Somehow, disappointing. The only message I want to convey is "not to lose yourself". I apologise for I know I haven't been the one making friendship stronger. Other than that, I will not apologise. My mind is clear.

Memorial park

2009-01-25T17:30:00.004+08:00

I (L)

How long can we linger on

2009-01-23T14:39:00.002+08:00

So far my class has been a quiet one. We never had outings or rather not more than once. I still like the whole environment though, peaceful peaceful. I'm always the annoying one, dragging Brian to play neopets with me. Its such a pity he's not in class today, I can't irritate anyone. Yasmin's phone has been vibrating since morning. I miss my class already!

For not

2009-01-22T18:17:00.001+08:00

Shaaaaaaaa laaaaaaaa laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. AHhhhhhhh.

We walk on lines.

2009-01-22T15:30:00.003+08:00

Many times

2009-01-21T19:10:00.004+08:00

I need to sit down and let thoughts flow in. I guess I am only human afterall. I feel like any other girl and I don't know what you think of me having to make a fuss out of this. Hold on, I am not making a fuss, just feeling like how a girl would feel.

Trust? I always believe in having trust, but trust comes with a whole base. To trust, you need to know who to trust. To trust is like having to deceive yourself sometimes. I don't know who stands here with me but I am wondering what else we need in building trust.

Balance is crucial. It has never once slip off my mind. Despite having to feel like a fool sometimes, I continue making myself feel lousier. Confusing? I thought so too. All these uncanny emotions that I have to deal with every single day. "Give and take, never ask for more". Did we clear off this part, or it is me trying to exaggerate things?

Let more flow into my mind, I need to explode..
Talk is cheap, words are just so cheap. Sweetest nothings. It makes sense to me right now, right here in my room. I couldn't figure out how talk could turn out to be just breath but now I definitely can. No, you didn't do anything bad. Thinking how can things ever work out. How long can I try fitting a lifestyle I've never gone through before? How long will it take for me to alter my personality just to fit in?

Tonight is like any other night. They do a repetition.

Rows, orders

2009-01-21T18:07:00.004+08:00

"Your shit is so smelly, I can't smell mine."

Shila, Nad and me were doing our job in 3 consecutive cubicles over at the airport. I tried playing some slow music to make myself impatient so that I could force whatever it is in me. Apparently Shila played rock music to herself and she was rocking in the cubicle which then distracted her from bringing them out. But she did it in the end. Nad? She couldn't get anything out of her. I am talking about all these because I am surprisely feeling crappy.

Thanks but sorry.

a year older

2009-01-19T10:52:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday Sharon. Many many happy returns of the day.

Rheumatism tonight

2009-01-18T22:30:00.005+08:00

Now look, I don't need to beg of you to save myself from being fired.

Night.

Sharon's birthday surprise(ongoing..)

2009-01-17T19:12:00.007+08:00

This was undone, but it is done now. Okay, you got my point. Hopefully she's not online to read my blog. Anyway its impossible for her to be reading it now since she's busy at work.

Okay, just shut up. Haa. Did I tell you my surprise for her birthday failed? I know its stupid, because I am stupid enough to call her mom when she's with her mom. Point is, I am dumb. But I did mention to her mom that it is suppose to be a surprise. She practically repeated my every sentences in the car. Obviously, plans ruined.

Its fine, we stick to our initial plan. I know Peishan looks like me, but I am in black today. Oh, I realised I got no pink top. Anyway, let's go to what we started. We went over to Ikea because we wanted to get a frame but we thought a cork board would be better.

We had a tough time searching for a gift and we finally decided on a watch. I really hope she like it. Good dinner, presents and best friends equal to a happy birthday. Peishan and me went over to the supermarket to get ingredients for a perfect dinner. I hope everything will go very smoothly, no awful taste of spagetti and mushroom soup. And hey, cancel that "I hope" because everything will be fine with meeeeeeeeeeeeee, chef me. haaa.

This is what I pinned up on the corkboard. A birthday greeting.

I know my hello kitty looks retarded there but who cares. I mean, I don't like it anymore. That's Peishan with a hardworking face huh.

To end this post with my face taken a few days back!

I'll write another post again after the celebration. Ciaoooooo

2009-01-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

Its okay, its really okay..

2009-01-16T09:53:00.000+08:00

To 123: My number is 63892222. That's my house number, I got no handphone.

Here you goooooooo

2009-01-15T19:03:00.004+08:00

What is the most important thing in your life ?
Julie's butter wafer biscuits. In fact, I am eating them right now.

What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
4D, I heard people say when we smell shit but the shit is no where to be seen, we are feeling lucky. So, I decided to buy $1 of 4D. Hopefully I strike on Saturday? WHO KNOWS! And hey, I am not that supertitious, just for fun you know? My first time buying it anyways.

Where do you wish to get married?
Karon Beach. Corals, dolphins, clown fish, hehehhhhhhhhh.

How old do you think you will get permanently owned by your lover?
60 years young.

Are you in love?
I am, with the indian whom I always see in school. YA, the one who never fails to listen to music when eating. Oh ya, and and, he has only one long eyebrow. Unique isn't it? heeeee.

Where was the last restaurant you had dinner at?
Pepper lunch with Cath. (;

Name the latest book you bought?
Lastest book? Let's see, "retire young, retire rich".

What is your full name ?
Yeo Xiu Jia, Christina.

Do you prefer mother or father?
Same.

Name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time?
Angelina Jolie, can I kiss her?

Do you do your own laundry ?
Nopeeeee, no more. No time to even watch tv. hah.

The most exciting place you want to go?
Bedok Jetty, FISHINGGGGGGGGG. :(

Hugs or kisses???
Hugs. Sink into the chest and sleep.

Point out five things about the person who tagged you??

Shila
1. Calm
2. Funny
3. Creative
4. Cool
5. Matured

Hakim
1. Fidgety
2. Funny
3. Loves to save sms (HAHAH)
4. Motherly (I don't know why, shh)
5. Lazy

Eight things im passionate about.

1. Digging my nose
2. Bite my nails
3. Fishing
4. KFC
5. Sleeping
6. Julie's butter wafers
7. Designing cards
8. Framing pictures up

Eight books I have read recently.

1. Retire young, retire rich
2. Since I don't have you
3. Tuesday with Morrie
4. To kill a mockingbird
5. The man named Dave

Eight songs i’ve been listening over and over again??

1. Come As You Are by Nirvana
2. Littlest Things by Lily Allen
3. Roses And Butterflies by Making April
4. Yellow by Coldplay
5. Supreme by Robbie Williams
6. Stoplights And Mistakes by Trella
7. Road Trippin' by Red Hot Chilli Peppers
8. Your Own Disaster by Taking Back Sunday

Eight people you tag??

1. Cath
2. Shihui
3. Rasyid
4. Sharon
5. Peishan
6. Wx
7. Krista
8. Farhan

* Darlings who have been tagged, you are given the special honour to copy and personalized the answers on your own blog.

2009-01-15T11:48:00.001+08:00

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2009-01-14T11:34:00.004+08:00

The nights never cease as I spend all of these nights reflecting and dealing with all sorts of feelings. The feeling of being broken, the feeling of remoteness and the list goes on. I've tried pulling myself through and through all these hazy moments and having to feel a little more optimistic with things around me. Time and time again. How do I put these into words?

2009-01-12T10:58:00.002+08:00

I am supposed to be sleeping in if today is a holiday.
I don't know, I don't know, I don't I don't know, I hate all these suspended feeling in me. I hate me being uncomfortable with everything when everything is actually nothing. I don't know, because I really don't. See the point? not.