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Go ahead, fall down. The world looks different from the ground. -Oprah Winfrey- Ama Adilla Angie Amirah Baky Catherine Dian Denan Esther Farhan Farzana Fiona Hafiz Kim-Chi Lilian Nadhea Oliver Peishan Ryan Sam Sharon Shihui Shakila Simin Umairah Xinkai Zie
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
Memorial park
Friday, January 23, 2009
How long can we linger on
![]() So far my class has been a quiet one. We never had outings or rather not more than once. I still like the whole environment though, peaceful peaceful. I'm always the annoying one, dragging Brian to play neopets with me. Its such a pity he's not in class today, I can't irritate anyone. Yasmin's phone has been vibrating since morning. I miss my class already!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
For not
Shaaaaaaaa laaaaaaaa laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. AHhhhhhhh.
We walk on lines.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Many times
I need to sit down and let thoughts flow in. I guess I am only human afterall. I feel like any other girl and I don't know what you think of me having to make a fuss out of this. Hold on, I am not making a fuss, just feeling like how a girl would feel.
Trust? I always believe in having trust, but trust comes with a whole base. To trust, you need to know who to trust. To trust is like having to deceive yourself sometimes. I don't know who stands here with me but I am wondering what else we need in building trust. Balance is crucial. It has never once slip off my mind. Despite having to feel like a fool sometimes, I continue making myself feel lousier. Confusing? I thought so too. All these uncanny emotions that I have to deal with every single day. "Give and take, never ask for more". Did we clear off this part, or it is me trying to exaggerate things? Let more flow into my mind, I need to explode.. Talk is cheap, words are just so cheap. Sweetest nothings. It makes sense to me right now, right here in my room. I couldn't figure out how talk could turn out to be just breath but now I definitely can. No, you didn't do anything bad. Thinking how can things ever work out. How long can I try fitting a lifestyle I've never gone through before? How long will it take for me to alter my personality just to fit in? Tonight is like any other night. They do a repetition.
Rows, orders
"Your shit is so smelly, I can't smell mine."
Shila, Nad and me were doing our job in 3 consecutive cubicles over at the airport. I tried playing some slow music to make myself impatient so that I could force whatever it is in me. Apparently Shila played rock music to herself and she was rocking in the cubicle which then distracted her from bringing them out. But she did it in the end. Nad? She couldn't get anything out of her. I am talking about all these because I am surprisely feeling crappy. Thanks but sorry.
Monday, January 19, 2009
a year older
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Rheumatism tonight
Now look, I don't need to beg of you to save myself from being fired.
Night.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Sharon's birthday surprise(ongoing..)
Friday, January 16, 2009
Its okay, its really okay..
To 123: My number is 63892222. That's my house number, I got no handphone.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Here you goooooooo
What is the most important thing in your life ?
Julie's butter wafer biscuits. In fact, I am eating them right now. What is the last thing you bought with your own money? 4D, I heard people say when we smell shit but the shit is no where to be seen, we are feeling lucky. So, I decided to buy $1 of 4D. Hopefully I strike on Saturday? WHO KNOWS! And hey, I am not that supertitious, just for fun you know? My first time buying it anyways. Where do you wish to get married? Karon Beach. Corals, dolphins, clown fish, hehehhhhhhhhh. How old do you think you will get permanently owned by your lover? 60 years young. Are you in love? I am, with the indian whom I always see in school. YA, the one who never fails to listen to music when eating. Oh ya, and and, he has only one long eyebrow. Unique isn't it? heeeee. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner at? Pepper lunch with Cath. (; Name the latest book you bought? Lastest book? Let's see, "retire young, retire rich". What is your full name ? Yeo Xiu Jia, Christina. Do you prefer mother or father? Same. Name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time? Angelina Jolie, can I kiss her? Do you do your own laundry ? Nopeeeee, no more. No time to even watch tv. hah. The most exciting place you want to go? Bedok Jetty, FISHINGGGGGGGGG. :( Hugs or kisses??? Hugs. Sink into the chest and sleep. Point out five things about the person who tagged you?? Shila 1. Calm 2. Funny 3. Creative 4. Cool 5. Matured Hakim 1. Fidgety 2. Funny 3. Loves to save sms (HAHAH) 4. Motherly (I don't know why, shh) 5. Lazy Eight things im passionate about. 1. Digging my nose 2. Bite my nails 3. Fishing 4. KFC 5. Sleeping 6. Julie's butter wafers 7. Designing cards 8. Framing pictures up Eight books I have read recently. 1. Retire young, retire rich 2. Since I don't have you 3. Tuesday with Morrie 4. To kill a mockingbird 5. The man named Dave Eight songs i’ve been listening over and over again?? 1. Come As You Are by Nirvana 2. Littlest Things by Lily Allen 3. Roses And Butterflies by Making April 4. Yellow by Coldplay 5. Supreme by Robbie Williams 6. Stoplights And Mistakes by Trella 7. Road Trippin' by Red Hot Chilli Peppers 8. Your Own Disaster by Taking Back Sunday Eight people you tag?? 1. Cath 2. Shihui 3. Rasyid 4. Sharon 5. Peishan 6. Wx 7. Krista 8. Farhan * Darlings who have been tagged, you are given the special honour to copy and personalized the answers on your own blog.
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Distinct and clear
The nights never cease as I spend all of these nights reflecting and dealing with all sorts of feelings. The feeling of being broken, the feeling of remoteness and the list goes on. I've tried pulling myself through and through all these hazy moments and having to feel a little more optimistic with things around me. Time and time again. How do I put these into words?
Monday, January 12, 2009
I am supposed to be sleeping in if today is a holiday.
I don't know, I don't know, I don't I don't know, I hate all these suspended feeling in me. I hate me being uncomfortable with everything when everything is actually nothing. I don't know, because I really don't. See the point? not.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I hate all those theories you gave me. Having to get drunk and come home so late at night while you contradicts yourself with dad. I hate it and you know what, because you had to relate every little thing with him. The sad thing is when you know what's wrong. Every single thing is not going well but I hate it when you refuse to turn it around. I hate it when I find myself repeating the same old story because it gets onto my nerves. I never want to be in this place, never and you can trust me for that.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Fiz
People say
Thursday, January 8, 2009
The usuals
I just bitten Jo's hand. Good thing is, he is still laughing. Bad thing is, maybe in pain? The talk just now was so dull, but I was forced to go because they will deduct 5 points if I don't.
Sigh, things shouldn't even be this way. Thing is, I never deny and I never like to deny all these. Never. I feel all of those you thought bad about me. I never meant the way you think of those words coming out of me. I am so uncertain when this will come into conclusion. This ho hum topic. Ciao.
I forgot when was the last time I fell down, leave aside yesterday.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Feeling of deception, bringing down souls
Exposures of days and nights
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
No rims
Destitute, enough but unavailing
Feeble, impotent, powerless Tranquility runs in my blood No rebounds, no expectancy
You have
Zero.
I have became what I have always hated.
-Saosin
Monday, January 5, 2009
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
Gasp
The best thing is, I always know that trust could do this much better. And the thing we lacked thereof. Just a little permission. I've been constantly reminding myself that I am still 17 but I always believe that I can make sense in what comes out of me. I am not saying that I am forever saying the right things, but at the very least, I could reason out myself. I am pacing myself, in life, in everything I do. I want to breathe air from a foreign land. Because all you know is to scream a "no" right at my face and yada yada.
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