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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Start with yourself
"Honesty is the best policy."
It may sound a little cheesy at first but after giving it a thought, will you agree with me? Unless you have nothing to risk which I believe otherwise.
We humans, have a flexible, unlimited capacity for deception. Most of the time we choose to keep mum because we are looking towards what is best for us. That desire and that need to deceive because there's a need of good impression and trying to avoid problems after admitting.
However, you can say its your life to keep others in the dark because you are in total control. Now, maybe dishonesty is the second best policy. Dishonesty is when you need a turn around to cover up something you are wanting to change. Then go ahead as long as you know you WILL become better.
If not, honesty still is the best policy. It feels good to admit than weighing all the guilt in you.
To be honest, you need to leave all your pride behind you. Admit, not defend.
Now,
"Would you want to know or rather not know the bad news?"
You want to know because you don't want to draw any line in between parties and yourself, you are curious, you want a relationship to be transparent, you don't like the idea of being cheated on/kept in the dark.
You think its best you not know because when you don't know, there's nothing to worry about, when there's nothing to worry about, nothing will change your mood, and when nothing changes your mood, you'll be you.
So which one is the better way?
Since I said honesty is the best policy, I guess it is good if you know something you don't wanna know because at least, you are not walking in a maze. Be honest with yourself first, you know you wanna know.
When a problem strikes, you need to strike it out immediately instead of leaving it there. Nothing beats cancelling out something bad from your list. ;-)
Don't jeopardize your relationship by shutting yourself out just because you are afraid of knowing. Solve.
It may sound a little cheesy at first but after giving it a thought, will you agree with me? Unless you have nothing to risk which I believe otherwise.
We humans, have a flexible, unlimited capacity for deception. Most of the time we choose to keep mum because we are looking towards what is best for us. That desire and that need to deceive because there's a need of good impression and trying to avoid problems after admitting.
However, you can say its your life to keep others in the dark because you are in total control. Now, maybe dishonesty is the second best policy. Dishonesty is when you need a turn around to cover up something you are wanting to change. Then go ahead as long as you know you WILL become better.
If not, honesty still is the best policy. It feels good to admit than weighing all the guilt in you.
To be honest, you need to leave all your pride behind you. Admit, not defend.
Now,
"Would you want to know or rather not know the bad news?"
You want to know because you don't want to draw any line in between parties and yourself, you are curious, you want a relationship to be transparent, you don't like the idea of being cheated on/kept in the dark.
You think its best you not know because when you don't know, there's nothing to worry about, when there's nothing to worry about, nothing will change your mood, and when nothing changes your mood, you'll be you.
So which one is the better way?
Since I said honesty is the best policy, I guess it is good if you know something you don't wanna know because at least, you are not walking in a maze. Be honest with yourself first, you know you wanna know.
When a problem strikes, you need to strike it out immediately instead of leaving it there. Nothing beats cancelling out something bad from your list. ;-)
Don't jeopardize your relationship by shutting yourself out just because you are afraid of knowing. Solve.
Loves,
Christina
Finally
I am sick of the old link. Soo there! A new one and guys, I got a new layout. hehehe. Wth, not as if you guys won't notice.
meowwww.
meowwww.
Learning
Your face stands out loud in the crowd. I see you seeing me. Stay close and watch. Let's see what's gonna happen.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Colors
Helllllllllo guys.Adidas sales @ Expo is very disappointing.
&& I have decided to send my phone to the service center for repairs tml.
Ciaoooooooooooooooooooo.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Witches of witches
Friday, March 20, 2009
Afraid of losing
When to stop giving so that you won't lose more than what you gave?
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Picnic @ Botanic Gardens
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Switch on, Switch off
People come and go. They might be close to you once, or even your best friend. Making you wonder what have you exactly done wrong or whether you've put in enough to keep it stable.
We tend to ask others, "Am I really a good friend and if yes, why do these people have to leave?" Yep, I've seen many people leaving me. Too many and its pretty tiring. Its like starting to learn a whole new game.
Friends are hard to come by, I appreciate every one of them and I mean it. I am not here just to preach but you know, feelings stay as feelings. You've heard of, "you give is what you always get". You may get tired of being too giving sometimes because you always expect something and get nothing in return.
I wouldn't want someone to do something I wouldn't want them to do.
I wouldn't want someone to stop being friends with me.
I wouldn't want to do something to hurt my friend.
I wouldn't want to be here typing all this shit when I can do something else instead.
I wouldn't want to lose a friend.
I wouldn't want to lose a friend.
How far can you expose yourself to your best friend?
Does it make sense if I have the intentions to hurt my best friend and yet tell him/her everything about myself?
Sorry if I don't make sense.
But you know what, I tried my best as a friend and I am your friend if you want me to be.
I am just upset how people can leave without hearing a single explanation.
Its really unfair.
What if you were me?
How would you feel?
Friendship is like a "put yourself into my shoes" kinda thing. I will never stop trying unless you want me to.
I've picked up many constructive knowledge from situations and situations. Its not the end, never the end. I've got to know new people, and these people are awesome people and they get better. I've learnt to be appreciative. It doesn't mean I've forgotten about that friendship we used to have, its there, at least for me.
"People come and go."
Some people disappoint you time and time again. It just shows how much they don't cherish you.
Leave, you deserve better friends. Its not as if they revolve around you.
As for me, we didn't even manage to clear it off.
We tend to ask others, "Am I really a good friend and if yes, why do these people have to leave?" Yep, I've seen many people leaving me. Too many and its pretty tiring. Its like starting to learn a whole new game.
Friends are hard to come by, I appreciate every one of them and I mean it. I am not here just to preach but you know, feelings stay as feelings. You've heard of, "you give is what you always get". You may get tired of being too giving sometimes because you always expect something and get nothing in return.
I wouldn't want someone to do something I wouldn't want them to do.
I wouldn't want someone to stop being friends with me.
I wouldn't want to do something to hurt my friend.
I wouldn't want to be here typing all this shit when I can do something else instead.
I wouldn't want to lose a friend.
I wouldn't want to lose a friend.
How far can you expose yourself to your best friend?
Does it make sense if I have the intentions to hurt my best friend and yet tell him/her everything about myself?
Sorry if I don't make sense.
But you know what, I tried my best as a friend and I am your friend if you want me to be.
I am just upset how people can leave without hearing a single explanation.
Its really unfair.
What if you were me?
How would you feel?
Friendship is like a "put yourself into my shoes" kinda thing. I will never stop trying unless you want me to.
I've picked up many constructive knowledge from situations and situations. Its not the end, never the end. I've got to know new people, and these people are awesome people and they get better. I've learnt to be appreciative. It doesn't mean I've forgotten about that friendship we used to have, its there, at least for me.
"People come and go."
Some people disappoint you time and time again. It just shows how much they don't cherish you.
Leave, you deserve better friends. Its not as if they revolve around you.
As for me, we didn't even manage to clear it off.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Carry on
It doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you don't stop.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Happiness is just a tear drop away
I am quite an emotionally attached person and I like it all by myself.
Sometimes while we are seeking for something to fill up the emptiness, we tend to make mistakes, be it a mistake affecting ourselves or a mistake affecting others. However, we promise to make it a lesson learnt but many times, we start writing onto the same line over and over again. Accumulating blunders and blunders.
We might be clear of what is wrong, but sometimes its all about going with the flow. Its like a hidden trap. Going with the flow may sound good but its better if we stop it.
I know.
I know its difficult sometimes, especially when you are missing out something and this opportunity is right at your door, thus asking yourself....
WHY NOT?!!!
Yes, but time and time again, we regret for what we've done. Its like an irrevisble act.
Now look, its not completely over. I guess its all about refraining and trusting yourself with what you really need and making sure you won't regret. Be stern with your decisions, and make sure your decisions are good decisions. "Do what is right, don't do what it feels right." Right?
We don't need people who are redundant, we don't have to hold on to something so hurtful and especially when you know they cannot be trusted.
We don't need 10, we need 1. Quality counts. Don't hope. Don't hope that someone will change for the better if you know that they will still be the same. Don't expect anything.
Move on, not with a heavy heart.
Sometimes while we are seeking for something to fill up the emptiness, we tend to make mistakes, be it a mistake affecting ourselves or a mistake affecting others. However, we promise to make it a lesson learnt but many times, we start writing onto the same line over and over again. Accumulating blunders and blunders.
We might be clear of what is wrong, but sometimes its all about going with the flow. Its like a hidden trap. Going with the flow may sound good but its better if we stop it.
I know.
I know its difficult sometimes, especially when you are missing out something and this opportunity is right at your door, thus asking yourself....
WHY NOT?!!!
Yes, but time and time again, we regret for what we've done. Its like an irrevisble act.
Now look, its not completely over. I guess its all about refraining and trusting yourself with what you really need and making sure you won't regret. Be stern with your decisions, and make sure your decisions are good decisions. "Do what is right, don't do what it feels right." Right?
We don't need people who are redundant, we don't have to hold on to something so hurtful and especially when you know they cannot be trusted.
We don't need 10, we need 1. Quality counts. Don't hope. Don't hope that someone will change for the better if you know that they will still be the same. Don't expect anything.
Move on, not with a heavy heart.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Heavy eyelidssssssssss, need sleeepepepepep. ciao.
Bad day
I sacrificed my sleep for work in case I oversleep. I thought work would turn out fine since I was told that I am going to work till only 3pm at SBE.
I was wrong, so darn wrong.
That fat bao asked me if I could extend till 6pm and I said I couldn't. He asked why, I told him I made plans. He didn't bloody listen, why bother to ask? Fuck you hard. I never work at Tram 1 before and I heard it will be crowded and I am bad at controlling crowds and I hate working at Tram stations and I don't know a single fuck of what I am suppose to do there. I am not even angry at Fid, I was just feeling groggy but that Fat bao couldn't stop his assumptions. Fuck fat.
Fat bao kept asking me whether I am close to Shila because I guess he probably think that we are always skipping work together which is true sometimes but not all the time. Ah.
At the start of the day, I kept taking in all those nags and shit from this and that.
And that fucked up racist shit tram supervisor, I wanted to spit at his face.
Then it started to rain heavily. I was concentrating on the guests, bringing them into the tram and do my fucking best to not let them get caught in the rain. I totally forgot about the bloody rostrum where I placed my cash box and my tickets on. I see the raindrops on my tickets, forming patterns, very pretty(sacarsm). Very clever. I was soaking wet by then. Top to toe. I am serious. Very serious. I tried to shift the rostrum but its so heavy I wanted to die. I thought I just keep the cashbox safe and dry will do. Little did I realise that I never lock that fucking cash box. As I lift the shit, all the notes and coins drop. Best part was, I didn't want to do anything. I kept looking at the ground, full of hundreds of dollars. All in a pool of rainwater. I didn't want to do much. I was pissed, upset, irritated. Then, I slowly pick all the money up and I know I am going to suffer a huge shortage. Bitch.
I broke my sandals on the way back to tally the money. My hair was soaking wet, like one fucking mad woman, my skin crumpled, my toes too. I was shivering at ticketing booth while counting the money. Point is, I had a really bad day. I really had a bad day.
I was wrong, so darn wrong.
That fat bao asked me if I could extend till 6pm and I said I couldn't. He asked why, I told him I made plans. He didn't bloody listen, why bother to ask? Fuck you hard. I never work at Tram 1 before and I heard it will be crowded and I am bad at controlling crowds and I hate working at Tram stations and I don't know a single fuck of what I am suppose to do there. I am not even angry at Fid, I was just feeling groggy but that Fat bao couldn't stop his assumptions. Fuck fat.
Fat bao kept asking me whether I am close to Shila because I guess he probably think that we are always skipping work together which is true sometimes but not all the time. Ah.
At the start of the day, I kept taking in all those nags and shit from this and that.
And that fucked up racist shit tram supervisor, I wanted to spit at his face.
Then it started to rain heavily. I was concentrating on the guests, bringing them into the tram and do my fucking best to not let them get caught in the rain. I totally forgot about the bloody rostrum where I placed my cash box and my tickets on. I see the raindrops on my tickets, forming patterns, very pretty(sacarsm). Very clever. I was soaking wet by then. Top to toe. I am serious. Very serious. I tried to shift the rostrum but its so heavy I wanted to die. I thought I just keep the cashbox safe and dry will do. Little did I realise that I never lock that fucking cash box. As I lift the shit, all the notes and coins drop. Best part was, I didn't want to do anything. I kept looking at the ground, full of hundreds of dollars. All in a pool of rainwater. I didn't want to do much. I was pissed, upset, irritated. Then, I slowly pick all the money up and I know I am going to suffer a huge shortage. Bitch.
I broke my sandals on the way back to tally the money. My hair was soaking wet, like one fucking mad woman, my skin crumpled, my toes too. I was shivering at ticketing booth while counting the money. Point is, I had a really bad day. I really had a bad day.
Work, insomia
I can't sleep, can't sleep, don't wanna try to sleep because I might oversleep.
I know this may sound complicated, but I am fighting those heavy eyelids but I can't sleep. Ahh, sigh.
I can't find my sandals for work. I am so dead. I am very sian, really very sian.
I know this may sound complicated, but I am fighting those heavy eyelids but I can't sleep. Ahh, sigh.
I can't find my sandals for work. I am so dead. I am very sian, really very sian.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Pizza, Nokia Music Station @ Esplanade
Nokia Music Station @ Esplanade.
Nad's Spag
;-)
We caught "Coming soon" in the Theatres and Shila kept squeezing my arm. I don't wanna be a spoiler here but I think the twist in the story is unexpected. ;-)
I've got work tml, and I am feeling very sian again.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Call myself water.
I am in a cup and its filled to the brim. Its going to overflow. You know?
I am in a cup and its filled to the brim. Its going to overflow. You know?
Body Shop Sales
I slept at 4am this morning, mom woke me up from sleep at 12pm because she wants me to accompany her to the market. She wants to buy groceries, I had to help her carry those heavy shit if not I bet she will fail to make her way home. lol.
She complained that my hair is too messy so she asked me to trim, which I did. It doesn't make any difference but as long as it makes her happy.
Open my mailbox, saw Sharon's mail, Body Shop sales at Suntec, very good. Changed, met Nad, squeezed with the crowd, good steals, eat ayam penyet at Marina food loft, eat honey, slack, home.
Ciao.
She complained that my hair is too messy so she asked me to trim, which I did. It doesn't make any difference but as long as it makes her happy.
Open my mailbox, saw Sharon's mail, Body Shop sales at Suntec, very good. Changed, met Nad, squeezed with the crowd, good steals, eat ayam penyet at Marina food loft, eat honey, slack, home.
Ciao.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Meow
I miss my long hair. I packed my table. I cleared my wardrobe. I swept my floor. I am very sian.
CHRISTOPHER'S A DISGUSTING BITCH. He digs his ass for shit and eat them.
And, give me ten reasons why I should delete this post. lol.
See, when I try so hard to bring across that painful message hoping that someone would feel for me, it always end with such disappointment.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
I need need to balance everything.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Rounds
I am desperately gasping for air. Have you ever tried explaining something but found out you've been going in circles and never came to the point?
Honestly, I am glad it happened in my dream and been saying what I always wanted to. Its a form of release, like how you vent your anger through your fist.
I think its all good in the end.
Honestly, I am glad it happened in my dream and been saying what I always wanted to. Its a form of release, like how you vent your anger through your fist.
I think its all good in the end.
Philosopher who loses his mind
I just got back from a job hunt. I guess its more like a shopping trip instead. lol, Shila's going to kill me. Ah, I hope the zoo doesn't fire me.
Toy'r us got no vacancies, borders too. Kinooo, please call us. Meow.
I am going to read my book nowwwwwwwwwwwwww. ciao.
Toy'r us got no vacancies, borders too. Kinooo, please call us. Meow.
I am going to read my book nowwwwwwwwwwwwww. ciao.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Snuggle up
Its getting bored in here. I am playing word challenge on facebook, trying to record some shit and hoping it will sound good. Its quite stuffy in here, I need to open my windows. Be right back.
Ok back, Shila says my blog is turning rusty. So I am here to jot down things I've done in the past few days.
I went to Henderson waves at midnight. Its so beautiful, so beautiful. I felt the pressure when we were high up. Actually, when we had to go in rounds and rounds, I felt a little nausea. lol. Jellybeans composed a new song other than "The Sun". We haven't come up with a full lyrics yet and still don't know what's the song name. Temporary name for that song is a little retarded. lol. I don't know why is it called the "Neh neh pocky" song, don't ask me. It was Denan's idea. hahah.
Hakim seems to be sleep talking now, saying goodnight to me online. He's working at Tram 3 tomorrow and I think its funny to see how that guy panick when the crowd comes. lol. I sounded evil.
Back to the topic, I've been eating a lot of Indian food recently, especially pratas. I like Komala's Thosai right Shila? HAHA. Casuarina Curry's mutton, Simpang's prata. All those late night suppers. Oliver, remember the stupid puddle? Good friends share everything! lol.
I think I am gonna miss all these late nights outing. School is reopening soon.
Ok back, Shila says my blog is turning rusty. So I am here to jot down things I've done in the past few days.
I went to Henderson waves at midnight. Its so beautiful, so beautiful. I felt the pressure when we were high up. Actually, when we had to go in rounds and rounds, I felt a little nausea. lol. Jellybeans composed a new song other than "The Sun". We haven't come up with a full lyrics yet and still don't know what's the song name. Temporary name for that song is a little retarded. lol. I don't know why is it called the "Neh neh pocky" song, don't ask me. It was Denan's idea. hahah.
Hakim seems to be sleep talking now, saying goodnight to me online. He's working at Tram 3 tomorrow and I think its funny to see how that guy panick when the crowd comes. lol. I sounded evil.
Back to the topic, I've been eating a lot of Indian food recently, especially pratas. I like Komala's Thosai right Shila? HAHA. Casuarina Curry's mutton, Simpang's prata. All those late night suppers. Oliver, remember the stupid puddle? Good friends share everything! lol.
I think I am gonna miss all these late nights outing. School is reopening soon.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Mom, thanks
Although dad forgot my birthday, I can leave it to you to remember.Although dad walked out of the house when we are supposed to have a mini celebration for my birthday, I got you to celebrate with.
Thanks mom. You're the coolest mom, coolest friend. Thank you for putting so much trust in me. You may be a nuisance at times, but still I have to say, no one can love me as much as you do.
Thanks Wilson and Jasmine. I may not be a good sister but you know what, I love you guys.
A thank you note.
Thank you for those who text/tag/call me to wish me a happy birthday!
Fauzul, Hamdam, Sharon, Zhixin, Farhan, Ivan, Kaming, Cath, Winston, Raj, Rasyid, Simin, Shijie, Farz, Adilla, Qibin, Weixiang, Sheena, Shujun, Kumar, Liyana, Amron, Umairah, Shihui, Charmaine, Jasmine, Leon, Priscilla, Zie, Nut, Rifaie, Huibin, Deon, Syed Hafiz, Johnboy, Wuman, Vjay and Fadyl!
Thank you for being there on my birthday!
Shila, Nad, Dian, Syed, Zie, Fadly, Oliver, Denan, Awi, Casper
Sharon, Peishan, Zixin, Cindy, Jeslyn
Ethan, Raj, Onisa, Yiwen
Weixiang
Thank you for the big card and birthday cake.
Thank you for the cake mixer and cake.
Thank you for the chocolates.
Thank you for the most random present ever and that top secret.
Thank you for the mug.
Thank you for the necklace, I like it alot.
Thank you for the Loacker and card.
Thank you for the movie gift card.
Thank you mom for the Martell, best to tell me that I am already 18.
I appreciate it alot!
I hope I never miss out any of you. (L)
Fauzul, Hamdam, Sharon, Zhixin, Farhan, Ivan, Kaming, Cath, Winston, Raj, Rasyid, Simin, Shijie, Farz, Adilla, Qibin, Weixiang, Sheena, Shujun, Kumar, Liyana, Amron, Umairah, Shihui, Charmaine, Jasmine, Leon, Priscilla, Zie, Nut, Rifaie, Huibin, Deon, Syed Hafiz, Johnboy, Wuman, Vjay and Fadyl!
Thank you for being there on my birthday!
Shila, Nad, Dian, Syed, Zie, Fadly, Oliver, Denan, Awi, Casper
Sharon, Peishan, Zixin, Cindy, Jeslyn
Ethan, Raj, Onisa, Yiwen
Weixiang
Thank you for the big card and birthday cake.
Thank you for the cake mixer and cake.
Thank you for the chocolates.
Thank you for the most random present ever and that top secret.
Thank you for the mug.
Thank you for the necklace, I like it alot.
Thank you for the Loacker and card.
Thank you for the movie gift card.
Thank you mom for the Martell, best to tell me that I am already 18.
I appreciate it alot!
I hope I never miss out any of you. (L)